Deflection

I thought that it was going to be more seasonable today, but it got up to 82 degrees and windy. The wind made the difference.

I am find that today is a sad day, since I was going to be pouring footings for my mew house, but that has been put on hold. With the sky rocketing inflation, I don’t have any interest in seeing what the current material cost would be for my house. Not an encouraging thought.

I have been planing on this day for years and to think that I could have afforded it a year ago, but it seemed like working until full Social Security would make a big difference in my income for years to come. Without knowing it until last October, it also made a difference in my income from my retirement fund with the state of Iowa. Was the wait worth the delay? Only time will let me know.

But my lots are so beautiful and it would be enjoyable to be setting on the deck looking down on Fickle Lake and watching the world go by. Also, I am not getting any younger, and I have been thinking that this would be a good time to build, since I can put in physical work in at this time. With my engineering back ground, I can do the general contracting at any time. This is a real dilemma.

It seems like we are going into the real unknown in this country. Inflation is out of hand and they are starting to raise the interest rates. With the fast growth of the economy, it seems like the interest rates will continue to rise and then there is a real chance for a major recession. This is all too scary. By the time that I can come up with a down payment, the interest rates will be so high that I will need even a bigger down payment. This is not fun.

But there is another way of looking at this issue. With my mom suffering with dementia, it seems like it is best for me to move back to Whitewater, since mom needs family around her most of the time. My sister and her family are doing the best to seen her on a regular bases, but my two brothers and their families are avoiding her like the plague. Family is the most important item in our lives, since it is our foundation. Without family, we are like a ship without a rudder crashing into icebergs. So, somehow, I have to find peace that I am doing the right thing be spending time with mom, but dementia is so hard on the care givers.

It seems like I should take today as a reality check, since I really do not know how else to take the day.

Roger